Reaching Burn Out Territory

Remember in my last post I said that I was burned out? Let’s talk about that.

To me, Burn Out means a major lack of passion and or desire in something that was once enjoyed. Some may call this a symptom of depression and maybe it is. But forcing myself to adhere to a silly schedule that nobody really cared about but me was an exceptionally foolish thing to do.

I used to play games like Tomb Raider, Shadow of Mordor, & War Thunder early in the morning. In fact, I actually beat Tomb Raider, and later beat two of the three major stories in Shadow of Mordor. On War Thunder, I advanced to tier 4 in Soviet aviation, and tier 3 of German aviation without purchasing XP packs. I somehow had time to do all this! Where the hell did it go?

That’s the thing about schedules. I feel like I spent an awful lot of time thinking “Jeez, what am I going to make a video about next?”. My passion had run out and making videos felt more like a chore. “Gotta get a video out by next Tuesday!”. I stopped playing games for fun and started playing them for clips in videos. What a stupid thing to do. Suddenly, playing games became a chore just like making videos did.

I think taking a break from video making will be an important instrument in reigniting the video-making passion I had before. I’m still active in the Egee.io Discord community & hacking on Androgee. But no more videos. At least not for a while.